i love my sister

click to enlarge it! you have to see it!

enough.

being demanding, mean, selfish, arrogant, self-protective is what happened when i started to reliased those people who around me are bunch of hyenas, wolfs and foxes. This is the environment that i was provided during i was a child. i dont have a choice not to transform myself from whoever i was to someone who cant even express myself in a correct way. They talked about money, all the time. they do horrible stuff to each other because of money. However, i was still pleased that there are still people who is not as money faced as them not until a horrible incident happened.

After that horrible incident, everything was so different. i see how unreasonably demanding can people be, how people reject each other in a very mean and hash way without thinking how much harm may cause just to protect them from getting into trouble. how can people keep on reminding you that you owe them more than what you actually do. How people do things without thinking the others feel just to so-called express their feeling. how stupid people tells me about the one who mean a lot to me in a way that shouldnt be used. how people use each other for their advantage. these people just didnt noticed that is too early for a kid to understand the reality world.

they tell you wonderful bedtime stories every night, but in the morning they show you that all the bedtime stories you heard were just stories. they tell you you have to love them everyday but they quarrel everynight when they thought you are asleep. they send you to temple for dharma talks on every weeksends but they showed the evil side of them to you.

That incident was so long time ago but it has made a really huge impact to everyone of us. Even today. i hate to mention it, i really hate it. i was so young that didnt know what happened all i know was the changes day by day. people cry, quarrel, scream, yell, struggle, angry.

im very tired. i dont know what happened and i dont want to know the details either. i had enough of this. why must this incident affect us so negatively? why must i be involved? why must they changed? why must they upset her again and again? why cant they just give her a break? why cant people just mind their own business and stop baby sitting those that didnt ask for help? her tears is going to dry one day, leave her alone, please.

I

no comment needed. thankyouverymuch.

深谷

我好像比以前还要刁蛮，

还要任性。

我好像很自私，

我好像真的忘了顾虑别人的感受。

幻想都好像泡泡一样，

看起来很美，

可是，

一碰就破。

眼泪也好像坏了的水龙头一样，
停，也停不了。

我真的想了好多好多天，
我真的很想很想不理，
我做不到，

因为，

我不知道自己，

已经不小心走了进深谷。

broken chinese, does it really mean what it should be? =__= i dont know.

purely random

just a reminder to all of you, the princess is not dead yet. im still here, blogging. but the princess is sick.

Something that you might like to know about me. (okay is a tag by some random ppl.)

1. What is your name?

Lu Heok Tzen, Zoe

2. Are you single?

do i look like im single!?

3. Name the languages that you can speak

Chinese- mand, canto, hakka

English

Malay

French (A little)

4. Which language is your favourite?

Malay (okay i dont know why, but is malay. i enjoy speaking it)

5. Which language do u hate the most?

Chinese - Mand ONLY

i mean i dont like speaking mand, im ok with writing and reading it.

6. Name 5 of your favourite Male celebrities

Takeshi Kaneshiro

Keanu Reeves

Bradley Cooper

Justin Long

Brad Pitt

(I need more space =__=)

7. Name 3 of your favourite Female celebrities

Jolin Tsai

Keira Knightley

Angelina Jolie

8. Name the the last movie you watched in the cinema and who did you go with

White Out, Kok Yuan (lalala~)

9. If you were to have a baby boy, his name would be...

Gabriel

10. If you were to have a baby girl, her name would be...

Eva? hahahaha..

11. Will you be a fun Father/ Mother?

I think so

12. What is the best gift on Earth?

Roses

13. Do you believe in God?

Yes

14. Do you believe in Fairy tales?

Yes, why not?

15. Name 1 if your favourite books?

Lucifer and the angle - Barbara Cartland

16. What are you?

What? Human lah~

17. What is your nationality

im a MALAYSIAN, im proud to be one.

18. Places that you would like to visit

India (must!)

Italy

France

Spain

Cambodia

Vietnam

Shanghai

19. Do you think that your boyfriend/ girlfriend is good looking? (You may skip this if you are single)

yes

20. Tag 10 victims

Momoko Sum

Tee Eva

Ter Xinyi

Kelly Tan

Yeng Ping

Meng Wei

Samzz

Zen

Mint Foo

Maxx

not going to tag cbox by cbox, as you know the im ill.

25 oct 2009

i was late for my starbucks' class and they locked the door.

but at the end of the day they opened it for me.

first time in history, im cool eh?

normally after they locked the door, no one is suppose to go in.

changed the ugly t-shirt and went lunch with louise.

the boyfriend came after that.

went for brad pitt's lastest movie.

the girl in the movie was damn hot, me like.

they spoke french in the movie and i understood!

I cant believe i still remember how does it sound like!

my french teacher must me damn pround of his favourite student!

L

K

went low yat.

hunt for laptop bag, and i dont see any one i like,

am i being fussy? yes im

went dinner at the hong kong cafe

and i cant find my parking again

i dont remember where i parked my car

went mei sing's bday.. yay!
korean bbq, little korean, solaris is better.
dorea in kepong is like erm...
not so nice.
bday girl was drunk, omg.
siew lee was laughing for no reason, lame eh?

my new hairstyle!

lavender,

that grows in October.

TER XINYI! wanted!!!

Xin yi, where are you!?

I need to talk to you larrrrrrr...

oh yea.. xinyi darling,

can you please help me to get something that can only found in states, please?

LOL